Everything is possible for him who believes.
Happiness is nothing but temporary moments here and there- and I love those. But I would be bored out of my mind if I were happy all the time.
Love is pure and true; love knows no gender.
You are stronger than your challenges and your challenges are making you stronger.
As the party starts to fade, she realizes it might be time for her to go home. “Joshua, I have to go. It was….”. Joshua interrupts Michelle. “Do you have to go? I mean just stay a little longer?” Michelle wanted to stay so bad but she knew sooner or later her father would be wondering where she was. “I’m sorry, Joshua, but I really have to go. I wish I could stay with you and keep talking about old times.” Joshua smiles, as he remembers all the silly things they did when they were younger, before he got his first boner.
Michelle and Joshua get deeper and deeper into the conversation, asking questions and getting to know each other again. Michelle finally tells Joshua she has to go and his face turns into the face that made her what to stay, but she couldn’t. She sees Aaliyah walking towards the door talking to Roberto. Michelle walks passed them and then she hears Joshua’s lovely voice. “Wait! I want to ask you something!” She stops and turns around, looks at him with the eyes he loved to look into. “Man, your eyes are so pretty. I look at your eyes and I just feel up with happiness.” Michelle blushes. “ I want to keep talking, so here is my number and maybe we can sit together during lunch.” Michelle thought Joshua moving a little fast for them “getting to know each other better”, but she wanted to spend as much time as she could with him.
Aaliyah is driving since Michelle drove them to the party. Aaliyah’s phone rings and she answers. Michelle looks out the window, dreaming about Joshua. She wish she could go back and keep talking to him. He made her feel so different and ALIVE. Aaliyah drives up to her house and she waves goodbye to Michelle and gives her a kiss on cheek. Michelle and Aaliyah always did that, so it was abnormal and not weird when they did it. Michelle makes her way to the driver’s side and makes her way home. She constantly thinks of everything that she did with Joshua. The way he laughed, smiled, grinned, and all the above. She drives into her driveway, no surprise, she sees that her father is not home. She walks into the house feeling as if something had changed in the house but she wasn’t sure what it was. She decides its best to take a shower and go to bed.
After a nice, hot shower she goes to bed. Her skin was soft and face was smooth, her body was smelling intoxicating. She closed her eyes ready to spend the next nine hours dreaming about Joshua.
Chemistry is great, but eventually your relationship moves out of the laboratory.
Michelle and her friend, Aaliyah, are in the car rocking hard to music and getting hype for the night they are going to have, tonight. As they drive up to the scene of the party, Michelle sees five guys standing in a circle and drinking out of red cups (who know what could be in those cups, something Michelle wanted to find out). As she looks closer she sees her four-year crush Joshua. His body was perfect from head to toe. He was like an taller, sexier version of Justin Bieber. She drives up into the driveway hoping Joshua will look at her while she gets out the car, she opens the door and glides her way slowly out the car. She made sure Joshua saw, and he stared at her with his pretty blue eyes and strong jawbone. She loved his voice and how each word sound more sexier than the other. He made her feel so different from everybody. She tried her best not to stare out because if she did, she might just zone and never come back out. Joshua, being a horny boy he is, looks at her from head to toe. Starting from her face to chest the popped out just enough that wasn’t too much or wasn’t too little to her waist where he could see all on her curves (front to back), her hips tightly caressing his mind of him touching them with his hands as her ass pressed up against him. As he mind started to wonder off on how beautiful and sexy Michelle, Aaliyah was walking in the front of car looking down as she fixed her purple dress around her body. The one guy she liked was named Roberto, who could get any girl he wanted, but Aaliyah knew he needed to work a little harder to get her. She didn’t want him as just a person she dated but an actual relationship. Roberto knew this when every time he tried to talk to her, he had trouble trying to make her give him what he wants. Aaliyah wasn’t as easy to get as any other girl and Aaliyah want a guy who wants more than just her body. Roberto wasn’t it, but it was hard to leave a guy alone that you find so damn attractive.
Anyway, as Roberto walked toward Aaliyah, he remembers he has a girlfriend who will be at the party in a few. So, he turns the other way and goes to talk to other people. Aaliyah knew exactly what he was doing and she knew that his next step was to be single again. Roberto, still staring at her, smiles and winks at Aaliyah, making Aaliyah feel special. Aaliyah decided to make Roberto want her more. As Aaliyah and Michelle walked up the steps moves her hips a little more to show off her hips. Aaliyah looks back and sees Roberto kissing his girlfriend, the more they kiss the more mad Aaliyah got. So, instead of crying her eyes out for wanting to be with him, she told herself “Tonight, I am going party hard with or without him, even it meant meeting another guy.”
Michelle walks into the party dancing to the beat a little, wondering if Joshua was looking at her. She goes in the party and Michelle sees Joshua’s ex girlfriend, Chrissy, the biggest hoe in the whole school. Chrissy was one of those popular girls that people never called her a hoe because they wanted to be just like her. Michelle wasn’t weak like those other girls. When she saw Chrissy she would turn her head the other way, and she knew this made Chrissy feel like she need to find a way to make her pay attention to her. As Chrissy walks by, she turns her head away from her green dress that showed everything besides that pre-used shit in between her legs. Michelle knows Chrissy is going by Joshua, but Joshua wasn’t stupid enough to fall for Chrissy again. He quickly walks away and moves his way towards Michelle, leaving Chrissy. Michelle started to melt a little when his masculine voice said, “Hi, Michelle.” She stands there just staring at him and looking at how much he grew up. She knew him ever since she was a two years old. They were best friends until one day, Joshua hits puberty and starts going out with Chrissy. After a while, they separated Chrissy still wanted to be with Joshua but Joshua realized how much of a hoe she really was. Michelle work with him in class on big projects but that was basically the only time they talked. Michelle felt like it was time she broke the hardened shell and actually start talking to him again.
“Hi, how are you?”, say Michelle.“Im good, how about you?, he replies. Michelle loves his voice, she tried so hard not to fall to her knees. “I’m great. Thanks!” Michelle smiles and so does Joshua. He realizes how beautiful and sexy Michelle was. It was hard for him not stare at her like he did. When they work on projects together, he would love to just hear her speak and watch her every minute that he could. He always felt like he would never be good enough for Michelle.
As Joshua and Michelle get to know each other again. Joshua smiles and says, “Would you like to dance?” Instead of replying, Michelle makes her way to the backyard where everybody was dancing. Michelle saw Aaliyah grinding on Roberto as if he was her boyfriend. Michelle knew how Roberto felt about Aaliyah, he just didn’t know how to show it. Anyway, Joshua finds his way to the dance floor and stops a second as watches Michelle dance. Her hip shaking, her body moving non stop. He could start to see that Michelle was getting hot and he was getting more than hot watching her. Joshua moves a little closer and Michelle rubs her ass against him. Moving up and down and all around. After a few minutes the fast music stops and a slow jam calms on. Joshua was kind of afraid because his pants felt a little tight and didn’t if Michelle could see it. Michelle turns around and smiles at him. She knows he has a little boner but she doesn’t care. Just being with him makes her feel wonderful. Joshua puts his arms around her waist and pulls her closer to him. He wanted to kiss her, but he didn’t. (Same feeling Michelle had ever since she saw him when she got out the car) They danced slowly, talked, and laughed. Things that typical best friends would do.
Motivation is simple. You eliminate those who are not motivated.
I decided to use this title for one reason only. The things you see that share a lot of emotions are really me speaking. It’s from the heart. The situations I’ve been in have hurt me beyond words and if you don’t understand or think I sound crazy or insecure. Then let me be the one to tell you I am insecure, I’m very insecure, but that isn’t going to stop be from posting this. It’s a coping thing for me. In the past couple years, a lot has happened and sometimes I would just write out my feelings. I was always something that sooth me. And believe it is nothing but the truth.
Nov. 11, 2014
In life, you sometimes find yourself trying to find the right one. That one person that melts your heart and that person you can never live without. It becomes hard when you start to love them so fast and you become scared that they don’t love you back. So you trust your gut and hope for the best. You’ll get over this person even if you try. In time, yes, you may feel that you are over this person, but believe me it isn’t. So you can understand this, let me explain my story. It’s not easy to write this, this isn’t professional or even proper writing for a book, but who cares its inevitably for me. To recope. To be me again. I’ve fell in love with a man I have never touched, seen, heard, or had physical contact with. But we are separated right now, and I’m ready to scream and bleed out all my love for him. It’s not easy. One minute, I’m fine and then the next I’m out. I couldn’t sleep, I probably won’t sleep until I get home. I got up this morning to say I actually did something. I’m skipping class because I’m tired of going to school, it makes me stress. My sister was right, I am unhappy. I’ve lost me totally, Arianna, you are in there somewhere behind all that bullshit, show everyone who you really are.
Are you interested in a good story? Well take some time and look at my story, Growing Trees. It’s perfect. There is always a new chapter everyday! You’ll be shocked what will happen in the next chapter. So follow along in the journey with me. 😀 I know I’m enjoying it..