Telephone: Chapter Six

Once Michelle and Aaliyah got off the phone, Michelle got dressed up to go see her grandmother, Grace. Grace was always supportive in making sure Michelle followed her dream. She hadn’t her father for drinking and not caring for his daughter like he was suppose to, but Grace knew that Michelle was a strong girl just like her. Never afraid to stand for themselves and never step down from a challenge. Grace’s eyes became brighter and delightful when she saw Michelle. She lived in a nursing home where the nurses treated her like shit and the food was never good well. Michelle would always bring a home-cooked meal when she saw her grandmother. They had fell so closer with each other that when Michelle and her ex-boyfriend broke up, she didn’t go to her mom but she went to her grandmother. Her mom would always say, “It’s okay, honey…. You’ll be fine.” But she wasn’t fine. She spent months crying over him and wishing he came back. This same situation happen when Joshua left for military school. At the time, he was with Chrissy but Michelle and Joshua were friends, but not as close.

Michelle day always brightens up when she sees her grandmother. She never is in a bad mood, she is always nice to everyone, and she can turn that frown upside down. As Grace ate the lovely meal that her granddaughter made her, Michelle was going to tell her grandmother she got accepted into college.

She told her… No response? Grace stopped while still chewing and look at Michelle like she was crazy. Then the biggest grin came upon Grace’s face. Grace was happy but sad that her grown granddaughter was finally going to college. The college wasn’t too far away from the nursing home, so Michelle could go see her whenever she wanted. Her father will probably die without her, but Michelle didn’t really care. She had Josh back and her grandmother and thats all she really needed.

As Michelle and Grace begin to talk about old times…an old memory came back in Michelle’s mind. When her mother and father got along, when the whole family, including in grandmother would go to the beach and spend the whole day there until sunset rose. It was a family tradition they did whenever it was really hot in the summer time. Michelle missed those good times and she wish it never ended, but as begins to grow up she starts to realize that it is never too late to make new memories. She, one day would be able to take her kids to the beach and watch them grow into wonderful children. She wasn’t going to end up like her dad and mom did. Only reason they stayed married was because Michelle begged them to stay together or she was going to run away and live with her grandmother. After her mom got cancer, everything changed..everyone changed.

Telephone: Chapter Five

Joshua runs his hand down her hip to the thigh and then back up again. Michelle softly brushes her lips against his, making her feel weak as he kissed her harder with every stroke. Her body begins to scream for him, covering her body in hot, steamy sweat. Joshua starts kissing her from head to toe. He caresses her breasts as he begins to kiss and massage her neck with his tongue. He feels his body getting hotter and wanting to be deep inside her and while she moans his name. Michelle wanting the same. The door to Michelle’s room slams open and her father stands their with nothing on, just his boxers. One hand holding on the door to keep his balance, while the other hand was holding up a gun pointing straight at Joshua. “Nooo!”, yells Michelle. Her father slowly pushes his finger down on the trigger.

Michelle wakes up, buried in sweat and felt devastated by her dream. Why did her dreams always come out bad? Or were they just nightmares? She already lost her mother she didn’t want to lose anyone else. She hears her the father in the other room, screaming and singing to some random song. She was still in shock from the dream about Joshua, she began to tremble. She felt like her whole life was always worrying about what her father was doing. And no matter what how many times you should leave, she knew deep down that she loved him and her mother would tell her to stay by her father’s side at all times. She’d tell her that he isn’t perfect and nor is she. She always had a way of making her get her head right.  I guess that’s why losing her fucked up Michelle so badly.

Michelle decides to text Joshua and see if he was busy later on in the day. She says a simple greeting and makes her way to the shower. Her father stops her in the hallway with a beer in one hand and the other on the wall trying to keep his balance. “You know your mother was a….” He starts off, “Bitch!, she never did…what……. I wanted her to do.” Michelle just stares at him for a second. She was never scared of him at all. Her father made his way to his room and she goes to the shower. What was with her father and his drinking? She had one more year of high school and she would finally be out of here. She hadn’t heard back from Joshua, so she decided she was going to chill.

She grabs her new laptop that she got for Christmas. Her father was never drunk on the day of Christmas because he knew how much it meant to his wife and daughter. Even though, afterwards he was getting drunk more than ever. Deep down, he loved his daughter, no matter how much Michelle didn’t get along with him, he will always love her.  He knew sometimes he would say stuff to Michelle that he never meant, but since he was drinking so much the alcohol took control of what is coming out of his mouth.

After looking through her facebook, she decided to go look at email. She was suppose to getting an email telling her whether or not she was accepted into Michigan State University. She also had a message from facebook from an ex-boyfriend, but he was irrevalant at the moment. She sees the message from the college and carefully reads it. She got accepted. She called Aaliyah and basically screamed her butt off when Aaliyah answered the phone. She finally will be able to get away from her crazy father and live on her own for the first time. She worked so hard after her mom got sick and her father got sick, she would do anything to get away from the fact that she might be losing both of her parents.

Telephone: Chapter Four

As the party starts to fade, she realizes it might be time for her to go home. “Joshua, I have to go. It was….”. Joshua interrupts Michelle. “Do you have to go? I mean just stay a little longer?” Michelle wanted to stay so bad but she knew sooner or later her father would be wondering where she was. “I’m sorry, Joshua, but I really have to go. I wish I could stay with you and keep talking about old times.” Joshua smiles, as he remembers all the silly things they did when they were younger, before he got his first boner.

Michelle and Joshua get deeper and deeper into the conversation, asking questions and getting to know each other again. Michelle finally tells Joshua she has to go and his face turns into the face that made her what to stay, but she couldn’t. She sees Aaliyah walking towards the door talking to Roberto. Michelle walks passed them and then she hears Joshua’s lovely voice. “Wait! I want to ask you something!” She stops and turns around, looks at him with the eyes he loved to look into. “Man, your eyes are so pretty. I look at your eyes and I just feel up with happiness.” Michelle blushes. “ I want to keep talking, so here is my number and maybe we can sit together during lunch.” Michelle thought Joshua moving a little fast for them “getting to know each other better”, but she wanted to spend as much time as she could with him.

Aaliyah is driving since Michelle drove them to the party. Aaliyah’s phone rings and she answers. Michelle looks out the window, dreaming about Joshua. She wish she could go back and keep talking to him. He made her feel so different and ALIVE. Aaliyah drives up to her house and she waves goodbye to Michelle and gives her a kiss on cheek. Michelle and Aaliyah always did that, so it was abnormal and not weird when they did it. Michelle makes her way to the driver’s side and makes her way home. She constantly thinks of everything that she did with Joshua. The way he laughed, smiled, grinned, and all the above. She drives into her driveway, no surprise, she sees that her father is not home. She walks into the house feeling as if something had changed in the house but she wasn’t sure what it was.  She decides its best to take a shower and go to bed.

After a nice, hot shower she goes to bed. Her skin was soft and face was smooth, her body was smelling intoxicating. She closed her eyes ready to spend the next nine hours dreaming about Joshua.

Telephone: Chapter Three

Michelle and her friend, Aaliyah, are in the car rocking hard to music and getting hype for the night they are going to have, tonight. As they drive up to the scene of the party, Michelle sees five guys standing in a circle and drinking out of red cups (who know what could be in those cups, something Michelle wanted to find out). As she looks closer she sees her four-year crush Joshua. His body was perfect from head to toe. He was like an taller, sexier version of Justin Bieber. She drives up into the driveway hoping Joshua will look at her while she gets out the car, she opens the door and glides her way slowly out the car. She made sure Joshua saw, and he stared at her with his pretty blue eyes and strong jawbone. She loved his voice and how each word sound more sexier than the other. He made her feel so different from everybody. She tried her best not to stare out because if she did, she might just zone and never come back out. Joshua, being a horny boy he is, looks at her from head to toe. Starting from her face to chest the popped out just enough that wasn’t too much or wasn’t too little to her waist where he could see all on her curves (front to back), her hips tightly caressing his mind of him touching them with his hands as her ass pressed up against him. As he mind started to wonder off on how beautiful and sexy Michelle, Aaliyah was walking in the front of car looking down as she fixed her purple dress around her body. The one guy she liked was named Roberto, who could get any girl he wanted, but Aaliyah knew he needed to work a little harder to get her. She didn’t want him as just a person she dated but an actual relationship. Roberto knew this when every time he tried to talk to her, he had trouble trying to make her give him what he wants. Aaliyah wasn’t as easy to get as any other girl and Aaliyah want a guy who wants more than just her body. Roberto wasn’t it, but it was hard to leave a guy alone that you find so damn attractive.

Anyway, as Roberto walked toward Aaliyah, he remembers he has a girlfriend who will be at the party in a few. So, he turns the other way and goes to talk to other people. Aaliyah knew exactly what he was doing and she knew that his next step was to be single again. Roberto, still staring at her, smiles and winks at Aaliyah, making Aaliyah feel special. Aaliyah decided to make Roberto want her more. As Aaliyah and Michelle walked up the steps moves her hips a little more to show off her hips. Aaliyah looks back and sees Roberto kissing his girlfriend, the more they kiss the more mad Aaliyah  got. So, instead of crying her eyes out for wanting to be with him, she told herself “Tonight, I am going party hard with or without him, even it meant meeting another guy.”

Michelle walks into the party dancing to the beat a little, wondering if Joshua was looking at her. She goes in the party and Michelle sees Joshua’s ex girlfriend, Chrissy, the biggest hoe in the whole school. Chrissy was one of those popular girls that people never called her a hoe because they wanted to be just like her. Michelle wasn’t weak like those other girls. When she saw Chrissy she would turn her head the other way, and she knew this made Chrissy feel like she need to find a way to make her pay attention to her. As Chrissy walks by, she turns her head away from her green dress that showed everything besides that pre-used shit in between her legs. Michelle knows Chrissy is going by Joshua, but Joshua wasn’t stupid enough to fall for Chrissy again. He quickly walks away and moves his way towards Michelle, leaving Chrissy. Michelle started to melt a little when his masculine voice said, “Hi, Michelle.” She stands there just staring at him and looking at how much he grew up. She knew him ever since she was a two years old. They were best friends until one day, Joshua hits puberty and starts going out with Chrissy. After a while, they separated Chrissy still wanted to be with Joshua but Joshua realized how much of a hoe she really was. Michelle work with him in class on big projects but that was basically the only time they talked. Michelle felt like it was time she broke the hardened shell and actually start talking to him again.

“Hi, how are you?”, say Michelle.“Im good, how about you?, he replies. Michelle loves his voice, she tried so hard not to fall to her knees. “I’m great. Thanks!” Michelle smiles and so does Joshua. He realizes how beautiful and sexy Michelle was. It was hard for him not stare at her like he did. When they work on projects together, he would love to just hear her speak and watch her every minute that he could. He always felt like he would never be good enough for Michelle.

As Joshua and Michelle get to know each other again. Joshua smiles and says, “Would you like to dance?” Instead of replying, Michelle makes her way to the backyard where everybody was dancing. Michelle saw Aaliyah grinding on Roberto as if he was her boyfriend. Michelle knew how Roberto felt about Aaliyah, he just didn’t know how to show it. Anyway, Joshua finds his way to the dance floor and stops a second as watches Michelle dance. Her hip shaking, her body moving non stop. He could start to see that Michelle was getting hot and he was getting more than hot watching her. Joshua moves a little closer and Michelle rubs her ass against him. Moving up and down and all around. After a few minutes the fast music stops and a slow jam calms on. Joshua was kind of afraid because his pants felt a little tight and didn’t if Michelle could see it. Michelle turns around and smiles at him. She knows he has a little boner but she doesn’t care. Just being with him makes her feel wonderful. Joshua puts his arms around her waist and pulls her closer to him. He wanted to kiss her, but he didn’t. (Same feeling Michelle had ever since she saw him when she got out the car) They danced slowly, talked, and laughed. Things that typical best friends would do.

We are all different.

I decided to use this title for one reason only. The things you see that share a lot of emotions are really me speaking. It’s from the heart. The situations I’ve been in have hurt me beyond words and if you don’t understand or think I sound crazy or insecure. Then let me be the one to tell you I am insecure, I’m very insecure, but that isn’t going to stop be from posting this. It’s a coping thing for me. In the past couple years, a lot has happened and sometimes I would just write out my feelings. I was always something that sooth me. And believe it is nothing but the truth.

Nov. 11, 2014

In life, you sometimes find yourself trying to find the right one. That one person that melts your heart and that person you can never live without. It becomes hard when you start to love them so fast and you become scared that they don’t love you back. So you trust your gut and hope for the best. You’ll get over this person even if you try. In time, yes, you may feel that you are over this person, but believe me it isn’t. So you can understand this, let me explain my story. It’s not easy to write this, this isn’t professional or even proper writing for a book, but who cares its inevitably for me. To recope. To be me again. I’ve fell in love with a man I have never touched, seen, heard, or had physical contact with. But we are separated right now, and I’m ready to scream and bleed out all my love for him. It’s not easy. One minute, I’m fine and then the next I’m out. I couldn’t sleep, I probably won’t sleep until I get home. I got up this morning to say I actually did something. I’m skipping class because I’m tired of going to school, it makes me stress. My sister was right, I am unhappy. I’ve lost me totally, Arianna, you are in there somewhere behind all that bullshit, show everyone who you really are.

Telephone: Chapter Two

Its the end of the school year, all of her family have come to come to Louise’s funeral. Michelle crying for her  mother wishing she was still here. Every morning Louise will tell her a quick story about her life growing up in a new country. Her mother is Dominican and same for her father. Michelle resembles neither of them, but she looked like her mother when she was the same age as her. It was as if Louise was given a second life, but it was actually just her daughter.

As Michelle watched them bury her mother, she wondered if her father actually cared enough or wasn’t too drunk to realize what just happened. Without her mother, life at home when be ten times harder. Her father’s drinking and no having job meant it was up to her to take care of everything. From getting herself to school and dealing with the shit that comes up with her father. Michelle knew how to drive a car, pay bills, and everything else, but when it comes to her father she doesn’t know what to expect..

In the middle of summer, Michelle wants to leave her stupid ass father home and go out with friends to a party where her long-term crush will be. She walks into the kitchen and sees her father grabbing his usual midnight snack (Beer and whatever else he can find to eat). She smiles at him as if she doesn’t want grab a knife and kill him and politely says, “Dad, I love you. Is it okay if I go to a party with some friends?” She waits for the question you always hear for your father when you ask him to go to a party. “Are boys going to be at the party?” But instead, he throws his beer and snack into the sink, steps up really fast into Michelle’s face and balls his hands into a fist. Michelle knowing that look, tightens up her body to prevent her coming, when that triggering blow in the face knocks her down on her ass. He swings his arm back and moves it towards her and in reaction, Michelle shuts her eyes completely. Her father puts his muscular arms around her and crying like a little bitch she already knew he was. She pats him on his back and then lays him down in the bed and waits as she puts her 30-something year old father in the bed. Now, he is officially knocked the fuck out. So she goes to the party. Now, if her father hit her then that would have been a given answer of the word “No.” But a “let your father cry on you and put him to sleep like a baby”, was a sign for her to get out of the house and relax. She grabbed her keys and everything she needed for the party. She calls her friend, Aaliyah, telling her to be ready to shake her ass until the sunshine hits her eyes. Aaliyah, was ready for anything and she knew Michelle was ready to party all night long.

Michelle.. a virgin…single…big crush on one guy for the last three days. Sounds like any other teenage girl, right? Wrong. Michelle wasn’t just a regular ole’ teenager, she was a smart one. Who put her schooling, in front of anything. If her grades were not where she wanted them to be, she wouldn’t talk to anybody until those damn grades were in the right place. But when she had everything in order in school, she was like a teenager who got expelled from school and knew how to “party like a rock” every day and every night. Michelle and Aaliyah both had curves that any girl wish they had. They didn’t show it off like other bitches would. Schooling was casual and be a student dressing, but partying was to be the biggest looking hoe at the party but still be a bad bitch at the same time. They achieved this perfectly. Not letting a damn thing stop them from having fun. And tonight was tonight that maybe that big crush Michelle had on Josh was finally going to be able to talk to him.

Aaliyah was always pretty. She had long brown hair, big eyes, and a petite body. She wasn’t shape like a hourglass but she close enough. She was a very classy girl who knew how to show off her shit while people were still hating on her. She knew she looked good but she carried herself as any lady should. A lot of people say that Michelle and Aaliyah could be sister because they look so alike.

Michelle got blonde highlights in her hair that brought out her shape and face. Her eyes were brown with a little green in them. She had more curves then Aaliyah, but Aaliyah was the one with the nice butt, while Michelle had big boobs. Michelle stayed fit everyday. From running to walking on the treadmill for an hour to two hours. Aaliyah did the same. Never worked out together but came out with the same best results that they wanted.

Telephone: Chapter One

Ring Ring!”, Michelle’s phone goes off. She’s tired from a long night of partying and all she wants to do is sleep, but she can’t. Kids need to go to school, drop off her boyfriend at work, interview in two hours, and then she goes to work.

As she climbs out of bed, she realizes her ankle is completely swollen and from being hangover from the night before she can’t remember how and why her ankle is swollen. She yells for her boyfriend, Mike. But no answer… She screams at the top of lungs “Mike! Help! I need to go the hospital!” Still no answer. She begin to worry that Mike meant his word when he said if she didn’t get her shit together he was taking his kids and leaving her. She tries to jump out of bed but instead falls on the floor, her head facing the closet door. She realizes that all of Mike’s clothes are still in there and even some of the kids’ clothes, too.

Waking up and realizing it was just a dream, gave Michelle a panic on what her future was going to be. Shes a teenage girl in high school, senior, smart, and beautiful (as her family tells her). Not a damn thing in her way from a better future. Her biological parents were too drunk and stupid to realize what a wonderful daughter they had. Never got in trouble, never got in a fight (but was prepared for one, if necessary), never misbehave in class (that is, what her parents knew off). Michelle wasn’t a perfect child, she did what any other young teenage did in school. She would talk in class, skip class when she felt like she didn’t need to go. She made sure her grades were good because if not, one slip in her grades and her father will slip a hit on her face.

Her mother, Louise, was dying from cancer and her father was too busy drinking and smoking, her mother could barely get the help she needed. A father she hated and hoped one day her mother would finally leave him and let her loving daughter take care of her. Michelle never really called her father “Dad”. She would only called him Dad, if he was sober enough not to beat her for calling his name. One night, her father was half drunk and started crying, telling her all the things that she didn’t give two shits about. He could kick her ass whenever he wanted to and she wasn’t afraid to say it to face. Her family tries to remind her that if it wasn’t for him she wouldn’t be alive right now. Who said she wanted to be in this world? Who said she has to work harder to stop the abuse for her parents? She would whether be dead or in jail, then live in the hell hole they call “life”.

As she gets ready for school, she realizes her mother isn’t calling her to give her, her morning pills. She waits a few seconds for the annoying, yell for help with her medicine. Still nothing. She paces herself and checks to see if her mother is still there. She walks into the room, her mother pale as snow on a clear sunny day. Her hair falling out little by little. Her eyes shut, not seeing one visible sign of rapid eye movement. She realizes in the next few months that after a few months only two people will be living in this house.